After my third baby was born, I was sent home from the hospital with all the paraphernalia new moms get. Along with that came prescriptions. One of the prescriptions was for the afterbirth pains that are close to the real thing (labor pains) with the more births you have. Things are just trying to get back to their normal size. Anyway....so there I am with my new baby and 2 others ages 4 and 2. And I was feeling good! I specifically remember some visitors one night. They commented on how great I seemed to feel especially with my baby just a few days old. I told them I had gotten some "wonder pills" from the doc that made me feel great. Well time went by. I ran out of the pills so I called for a refill. The nurse asked if my afterbirth pains were really that bad. I told her no, but I just loved the way they made me feel! There was a bit of a pause on the other end followed with a short explanation of some sort, and I'm sure some kind of "red flag" on my chart!
So that was that. I didn't think any more about it. All I know, is that from the first time I took a pain pill, I loved the feeling. They gave me incredible energy. They didn't make me drowsy as they do normal people. I could conquer the world!
So why do some people hate the way they make them feel and others love them? There has to be something different in our brain chemistry's. I don't know and it doesn't really matter.
But then reality sets in. Eventually the euphoria doesn't last. In fact it doesn't even come anymore.
Tears are streaming down my face right now - you need to know how very much you are loved. I'm thinking of the many, many times you lifted me up during such dark days and pray that angels will be with you during your personal Gethsemane. I would love to connect with you again - it's been waaaaay too long. If and when you want to, let me know. My prayers are with you.
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